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Friday, April 22, 2011 ( 12:54 PM ) shut up christine m and i have been together nearly 10 months which i know isn't very long but it feels even shorter, like a blink of an eye i often experience moments of great gratitude for his presence in my life but i am also aware of the temporary and fluid nature of things nothing is permanent in a fraction of a blink there could be a car crash or something and bam that person is gone! you never know. so every minute we share is a blessing that i'm grateful for today i found out that my severe anemia and fatigue are because i'm a carrier for thalassemia, a blood disorder that causes excessive destruction of red blood cells in my case my red blood cells are just small and can't carry a lot of oxygen no symptoms except the anemia, which i will take gladly anyway, i had this conversation with m and my doctor referred us for genetic counseling, in case we decide to have children i just thought it was really sweet that he and i were talking about our babies --babies that won't come for years and years, and may never come at all (blink of an eye!) but here we are thinking about them and hoping the best for them ps happy earth day # Wednesday, April 20, 2011 ( 3:49 AM ) shut up christine can't sleep started going through my inbox read emails from yearrrs back... updates from my travels in india of nail clippers and dogs eating slippers massive threads from various volunteer events brainstorming sessions, planning, execution, and decompression so much love put into them emails written at 4am with people whom i no longer see or talk to all that often i remember the moment i figured out what i wanted to do with my life and then i lost it, or so i thought started in a different direction only to come full circle my life is beautiful # Thursday, April 14, 2011 ( 11:56 PM ) shut up christine holy fucking shit i'd say that the bulk of shut up christine are accounts of my struggles to "walk the walk" as i try to live a life aligned with my principles take for example, the bumpy road to becoming vegetarian which started at the age of 23 and took me several years and then my journey to becoming vegan a lot of the stuff i eat is vegan anyway, because of m and i am discovering AMAZING dairy alternatives for foods i love - like trader joe's non-dairy strawberry ice cream made from coconut milk - my new favorite!!! but that's a post for another day.... when it comes down to it, i'm just not ready to give up goat cheese or dark chocolate peanut butter cups (when i put it that way, it's so trivial. i'm an asshole) you see the video at the bottom of this post? hold on, don't click on it yet i have a confession. i can't even watch it i'm trying to, and i have to stop it every 10 seconds you know that saying how must i be so you can be free today i am choosing ignorance :( http://youtu.be/THIODWTqx5E # Sunday, April 10, 2011 ( 12:37 AM ) shut up christine kuo (my bff) and i had a quick phone call to catch up super quick because not too much has happened in my months off from school my apartment is extra tidy though. and i always wash my dishes right away (i picked up that habit from m, who is kinda OCD about dishes in the sink) i've spent a lot of time at the beach, or in parks, or museums. some weeks we go to the beach daily (don't hate me) i go to the california science center at least once a week (it's free and fun and one of my favorite places) lacma is free after 5pm for la county residents... natural history museum is free on the first tues of every month.... we play frisbee so often that i've got calluses read some good books (loved this one) spent some time highlighting text and making flashcards and such i live a pretty good life. i'm so grateful for this time off. i needed it badly, to sort things out. but i'm ready to go back # Monday, April 04, 2011 ( 12:51 PM ) shut up christine on patience... i've been trying to volunteer with a certain hospital since january JANUARY "meet with Mrs. X at 11:00 on this day" "where is her office located?" -no reply- *looks up information in directory* FEBRUARY *comes 30 min early for appointment* *waits* *waits two hours* "didn't you know we rescheduled your appointment?" "oh no one told me" "come back tomorrow" "can i fill out the volunteer paperwork?" "no, come back in two weeks for the orientation" "TB test needs to be from the last six months. get it, then come back in two days to have it read" MARCH "come back to get fingerprinted" "call back in a week to see if your fingerprints have cleared" *this alone took 1 month to verify, i called almost everyday for 2 weeks* APRIL "you're clear. in order to get your badge, you need to give us this paper" "i did it back in february, it should be on file. i can do it again, can i email or fax it to you?" "no, Mrs. X has to sign it and you need to hand it to me in person." Mrs. X: "why did they need me to sign this? i've never signed for anyone before" me: sigh. i don't know. "come back to be entered into the database" "come here to get your badge photo taken" "we can't accept this form of id, come back tomorrow" fuck. fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *end rant*
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