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Tuesday, January 24, 2012 ( 5:31 PM ) shut up christine important milestones one hundred days from tomorrow,# Friday, January 20, 2012 ( 8:56 AM ) shut up christine  lately i've been sleeping at 7:30pm. makoto sleeps at 7:30pm too. i say dude, are we seriously going to sleep right now? its only 7:30! and then i immediately pass out the good thing is at 4am i'm all GOOOOD MORNIN!!!!! and i feel pretty good the whole day also Peyton is back! my sister found a flyer that a good samaritan posted and she got him back hooray! last but not least, i was at the doctor's and through a window in the waiting room i saw a chubby girl with her granny underwear pulled up way high and her low-rise jeans way low. hot mess. but it wasn't a window, it was a mirror!!! *i'm* the hot mess chubby girl!! today i am starting my Insanity DVD # Friday, January 13, 2012 ( 10:50 AM ) shut up christine we adopted a cat! her name is Pickles she's a 4 year old exotic shorthair she's funny. and a little bossy  "get me a drink!"
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Wednesday, January 04, 2012 ( 11:39 AM ) shut up christine pretty when i get "dolled up" for a special event i'll spend over 30 minutes in front of the mirror doing my makeup then i'll show makoto my made-up face and he'll say i spent 30 minutes putting on air, because he can't tell any difference it's like this: i dab on some brown eyeshadow. OMG I'M A CLOWN WHORE!! blend blend!!! insecure. i've been using a hand-me-down MAC blush from my sister that is literally 8 years old (or older) and a mascara that i bought 2 years ago for a wedding...i'm pretty sure its completely dried out and there's nothing left, still i put it on. 2 yr old dried out mascara = hello eye infection waiting to happen! since it's 2012 and all, i thought i would buy myself a new blush and mascara, to "bring in the new" and such. make-over myself i haven't yet. yesterday i spent a couple hours sitting on our front stoop, in my pajamas reading a book, in the sun when i came back in, i looked in the mirror and my face was pink and warm and i actually felt pretty i say this all the time, but its something i'm sure i'll have to work on, diligently, for a while. in 2012, my goal is to love myself, be kinder to myself, and build it from the inside You can buy all the makeup that MAC can make.....but # Tuesday, January 03, 2012 ( 10:20 AM ) shut up christine starting point. It is a path of insight into the nature of reality, a path of truth realization. In order to solve our problems, we have to see our situation as it really is. We must learn to recognize superficial, apparent reality, and also to penetrate beyond appearances so as to perceive subtler truths, then ultimate truth, and finally to experience the truth of freedom from suffering. The only way to experience truth directly is to look within, to observe oneself. All our lives we have been accustomed to look outward. We have always been interested in what is happening outside, what others are doing. We have rarely if ever tried to examine ourselves, our own mental and physical structure, our own actions, our own reality. Therefore we remain unknown to ourselves. We do not realize how harmful this ignorance is, how much we remain slaves of forces within ourselves of which we are unaware. By observing ourselves we become aware for the first time of the conditioned reactions, the prejudices that cloud our mental vision, that hide reality from us and produce suffering. We recognize the accumulated inner tensions that keep us agitated, miserable, and we realize they can be removed. Gradually we learn how to allow them to dissolve. -The Art of Living: Vipassana Meditation # Monday, January 02, 2012 ( 9:50 AM ) shut up christine au revoir on january 1, my parents' doggie, Peyton, disappeared. ran away, i think. startled by fireworks, perhaps? he is still missing, we cannot find him. makoto and i used to speak to Peyton in french we would say bonjour! tu t'apelle Peyton. adieu Peyton, adieu! (pronouncing 'Peyton' with a silent N frenchy accent) i don't know a lot of french but i have always remembered one phrase, that i would repeat to him again and again: en ce monde je suis perdu it means: in this world i am lost and now he is :( maybe he was french all along wherever you are, be safe little buddy # |
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