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Wednesday, April 29, 2009
      ( 11:24 PM ) shut up christine  
holy moly, compose yourself.

these are some of the emails that passed through my inbox today:
  • my friend kat wants to organize an evening of awareness on the civilian crisis in sri lanka.
  • amy wrote me a haiku based off a conversation we had last night.
  • brian sent me info about the summer session at compton college, so i can do my pre-reqs for the nursing program.
  • ella is setting up the next domestic violence monologues meeting, may 10.
  • we had a discussion on the sustainability of our project in mexico, and the short- & long-term impact of our presence there.
  • someone in the UK, whom i've never met, is going to build our Walk for Hope website for us.
  • another stranger, in New Jersey, wants to help design the WFH t-shirt.
  • kristeen is reminding everyone about the blazin hope volunteer mtg tomorrow.
  • kat came up with more amazing ideas for WFH activity stations. the event isn't until october.
  • we're doing 100 Acts of Love in honor of our friends' wedding this saturday. i've been reading the messages as they come in, from all over the world, and this is affecting me much much more than i thought it would.
  • norma sent me links to grants we want to apply for, so that she can build a community garden at a school.
  • nice email about happiness and living in the now, from an old friend.
  • and a woman we met at seva cafe last sunday owns a restaurant in long beach, and she wants to donate produce to us every week.
sometimes when i'm about to compose an email, i can't believe i get to be part of this. i. can't. believe. it.

thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you for letting me witness this
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Monday, April 27, 2009
      ( 9:49 PM ) shut up christine  
maybe the answer in life is really simple.

maybe its as simple as getting bangs. maybe all i need is a really good haircut
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Thursday, April 23, 2009
      ( 5:20 PM ) shut up christine  
Interview with Austin Hill
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
      ( 9:33 PM ) shut up christine  
right now i am reading an article on the role of business in the 21st century. some questions it poses:

- What would the world be like if the purpose of business was "Narings Liv"--a Swedish business term for "nourishment of life"
- What if money was designed and used to build communities & enhance human life? All life?


and then i come across this question:

- What other parts of our system need changing in order for the whole to work and grow harmoniously and support the larger community?


and i wish i hadn't read that, because i know the answer is going to freakin change my life, much how these questions led me to stop eating meat

damn you, why do i take things so personally.

i used to think there was something very pure, noble, and beautiful about struggle and sacrifice.
brian was joking when he said it, but i've been repeating his question to myself ever since: What the fuck are you trying to prove?

i think, my life will be very different one year from now
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
      ( 10:49 AM ) shut up christine  


If you can volunteer please come to either of the following meetings below. Please be sure to RSVP to Karuna at info@bethecause.org. If you can’t attend the meeting, but still want to volunteer we want to hear from you!

LA MEETING
8pm
Thursday April 30, 2009
3144 Canfield Avenue 102
Los Angeles, CA 90034

OC MEETING
8pm
Tuesday April 28, 2009
9342 Cellini Ave Apt 4
Garden Grove, CA 92841


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About Blazin' Hope
Our goal is to ignite the humanitarian spirit in each of us by joining forces with performance artists and other committed volunteers, empowering all who have hope to create meaningful change in our community and the world.

100% of the proceeds from this event will benefit A.I.M. (www.hearteducation.org) of Los Angeles and Corazon de Vida (www.corazondevida.org) in Baja, Mexico. Both nonprofit organizations serve to embrace at-risk youth, the most vulnerable members of our communities laden with chronic poverty, crime and violence.

Brought to you by Be the Cause
Be the Cause is a network of individuals who wish to make a difference in the world. What first started as a few friends is now one of the largest volunteer-run networks world-wide.

Thanks

Kristeen Singh & Be the Cause Team
bethecause.org

ps: a group of my friends will be visiting one of the orphanages in Mexico this weekend (i won't be going) but we need a few males to accompany them on this trip
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Saturday, April 18, 2009
      ( 12:23 PM ) shut up christine  
for the last year or so i have deposited with dogged devotion all recyclables into a cute little blue wastebin under my desk, like such:

dropping my empty toothpaste boxes and junk mail into this basket gives me GREAT satisfaction. not to be all weird but in my mind it's like if i don't do it, the world is going to die.

to make my life as a superhero that much easier, the city of Cerritos has provided each residence with a big old blue recycling bin. hi-five, world saved.

imagine my horror upon learning that all this time my father has been dumping my precious recyclables into the regular trash! i feel betrayed. by the way, this is why the economy has gone to shit.

WHY?!?! why are you evil-doers bent on destroying the world? it's so easy to put paper into the blue bin, or to bring a re-usable bag to the grocery store...these are simple, tangible actions you can take to prevent the mother-effin apocalypse, and STILL you refuse to do your part. for shame! i can't even look at you.

you're on your own, you ignoramuses. i will not save you anymore.
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      ( 4:56 AM ) shut up christine  
another good one
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Thursday, April 16, 2009
      ( 7:27 PM ) shut up christine  
i miss people at times, but i wouldn't say i'm lonely. i haven't felt lonely in a long time. i must have been a recluse in a past life. it's a blessing

i think the closest i get to a very faint loneliness is when i'm in the kitchen trying to reach the tupperware on the top shelf
but then i get a chair, and the feeling dissipates
sometimes i wish it didn't though

haha emo tears. i will just put the tupperware on a lower shelf
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Monday, April 13, 2009
      ( 11:11 PM ) shut up christine  

this has got to be one of my most favorite pictures of all time.
this is the day after i got back from india, and shwetha, jason, and sukh are picking lice out of my hair. life is so freakin beautiful
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Saturday, April 11, 2009
      ( 10:21 AM ) shut up christine  
this morning we had our yard sale at lo's house
i sold my drum (!!!!!) for forty dollars and i cried on the way home

i didn't think anyone was going to buy it actually
i did it to test myself

i think i passed the test but i'm going to let myself cry for another five minutes before i let it go for good

i'm telling myself that its not the drum but the sounds that i miss
and you can't hold onto sounds. you can't keep them

this was good practice for me
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Friday, April 10, 2009
      ( 5:22 PM ) shut up christine  
one more shameless plug!

Six months ago
you volunteered at the 2008 Walk for Hope and helped make the event a HUGE success! Because of you, last year was our largest walk to date, with about a thousand walkers raising close to $15,000 for various non-profit organizations.
Thank you. It couldn't have happened without you.


...and now we have a date for WFH 2009!
This year's Walk will take place on SATURDAY, OCTOBER 17--six months from now. If at any time during these next six months you hear, see, or experience something inspiring, please hold onto that thought! Then, when you have chance, take a moment to share that idea with us so that we can attempt to bring that inspiration to the 2009 Walk for Hope.


Ways to Get Involved

Join the Walk for Hope Group on our newly launched website: www.bethecause.com

Planning meetings will ramp up in June, but you can check the group for updates.

Submit a Quote
If there's an inspirational quote that is especially meaningful to you,
submit it by May 15 and it will be considered for inclusion at this year's Walk. Please include the author's full name.

Sign Up for a Team

An event of this magnitude needs strong leadership. There are eight different Walk for Hope teams: Publicity, Registration, Quotes, Entertainment, Food, Activity Stations, Booths, and Logistics. Role descriptions are listed here. If interested in leading a team, leave a comment in the discussion thread.

Activity Stations

How can we make the event more innovative and interactive? Past activity stations have included the Tree of Forgiveness, Random Act of Kindness Garden, and Letter to Yourself. Share your ideas here.

Website Development

Location: Virtual
Time Commitment: 2-10 hours per week
We're looking for a volunteer who can give our current Walk for Hope website (www.bethecause.org/walksite) a complete overhaul. We have an idea of the changes we'd like to make, but lack the technological know-how.


Keep the inspiration flowing, and we'll see you in six months!

-WFH Committee

For more information on these and other Be the Cause projects, visit www.bethecause.com
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      ( 3:05 PM ) shut up christine  
to the 4 people who read this blog, please take a moment to sign this petition written by my friend Kat

SUPPORT AFGHAN WOMEN'S RIGHTS - FIGHT NEW LEGISLATION THAT LEGALIZES RAPE

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Wednesday, April 08, 2009
      ( 9:45 PM ) shut up christine  
kya baat hai! today was love.
almost a year ago, someone told me that i led a mediocre life.

i LOVE my stupid little life!
i love it.

how fortunate we are
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Monday, April 06, 2009
      ( 7:56 PM ) shut up christine  
in a nutshell

i've been mulling thoughts over in my head for a really long time and decided that i'm moving out for sure, by july. my dad outright forbid me from doing it so i'm moving on the downlow, basically the plan is that i won't come home one night, which kind of sucks. i would prefer not to leave that way, but at least i've put the idea in their heads, and i think they expect things like this from me so i don't think they'll be too surprised when i don't come back.

i'm going to work at the motel until the end of the year. k brought up a good point, there's no way i can get a real job and still be involved with walk for hope & btc as much as i want to. if i'm living simply enough, my expenses will be covered with my motel pay, so it works out.

beginning next year i might go back to school for nursing but part of me thinks i'm doing this to pacify my mom, and the other part of me knows it would be fulfilling.
my incentive-- brian says that as a nurse i can work three days out of the week, and spend the other four doing what i really love. it's practical. but to go back to school, i have to give up 2 years, so i need to make sure that the investment i'll be making is worth the sacrifice in the longterm.

or i could stay at the motel, live simply within my means, and do what i really want -- which is what i've been doing all along.

need to figure out if i should compromise to get some security, or should i go for broke, literally, and trust that everything will be okay...
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      ( 3:38 AM ) shut up christine  
discontinuing BOMA for now

my intentions were good in the beginning but the experiment has backfired.

saving money has consumed me and i am more selfish now than ever.
quick example: i have a favorite pen (Papermate Profile), which is almost out of ink. rather than spend 60 cents on a new pen, i find myself being stingy with the notes i write down.
i bring up this example to show how this obsession has penetrated into the most trivial aspects of my life

on top of this, i am compulsively emptying my room.

i am hoarding and renouncing, simultaneously.

i am also on my period, which might explain everything.
damn this time of the month. i'm a mess!
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