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Thursday, May 27, 2010 ( 9:00 AM ) shut up christine in the last few hours i finished writing up 2 weeks of lab reports, pumped out a 4 page paper (4 more pages to go go go) and i have a microbio exam in T minus 8 hours but i'm a motha effin machine and i will kill this exam tonight. trust. no coffee i am running off pure adrenaline. put my head down and do the damn thang aw so cute :)  focus! handle it. # Wednesday, May 26, 2010 ( 11:29 AM ) shut up christine Be patient with all that is unresolved in your heart, and try to love the questions themselves. Do not seek for the answers that cannot be given for you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now, and perhaps without knowing it you will live along someday into the answers. -Rilke # ( 4:38 AM ) shut up christine 4am philosophy paper-writing music two more weeks. almost there # Sunday, May 23, 2010 ( 2:54 PM ) shut up christine i am a grown woman. i'm a grown woman! this song makes me feel POW! Oh what? YEAH i choreographed a whole dance to this song, using only my neck okay back to studying # Wednesday, May 19, 2010 ( 3:24 PM ) shut up christine just before j's 30th birthday he freaked out and wrote me an email saying hi how've you been will you marry me? i've been thinking about the people i've loved in past lifetimes and you know what i've realized? 21 year old cb is madly in love with j! 21 year old cb belongs to him, and he will always have her. but i'm not 21 anymore # Monday, May 17, 2010 ( 10:12 AM ) shut up christine ...oh and i didn't mention that before the race i hit someone with my car! (i'm still traumatized) i was driving slow and coming out of an alley when a bicyclist crossed the sidewalk. i bumped his wheel and he didn't fall or get hurt (thank goodness) but i'm still shaken up. i screamed I'M SORRY ARE YOU OKAY?? and he pedaled away. running over a pedestrian is one of my biggest fears M sent me this video to make me feel better. he doesn't know it yet but I'm going to marry him # Sunday, May 16, 2010 ( 1:18 PM ) shut up christine slowly better and better. santa monica 10k 1hr 8min # Saturday, May 15, 2010 ( 1:56 AM ) shut up christine healthy just finished chatting online with my very first (ex)boyfriend he gave me relationship advice, of all things. go figure :) the last time i ever saw him in person (february 2006, thank you trusty blog) i traced words into his back with my finger for him to guess, except i wrote a paragraph and he lost track. i walked out of his house and when i looked back to shut the door, he hadn't gotten up off the couch, tv was still on. i waited by my car for like a minute, took another minute to adjust my seat and mirrors. he never came out so i went home. haven't seen him since no juicy fight, no screaming, no throwing of things. how anticlimactic. its kind of disappointing that something that seemed so life shattering was so....ordinary. it took us a long time to become okay again, and we still haven't talked about 'it.' in my next failed relationship i want to go out big. its not healthy to keep it inside so quietly. dear next ex-boyfriend, let's - have a closing ceremony at the beach and burn all our sentimental items in a bonfire - make voodoo dolls - write all the things we hate about each other on a pinata, then beat it to a pulp and give all the candy to orphans - have a ten-minute crying contest and whoever sheds the most tears gets $500 - at the very least let's have a proper goodbye. give me a hug and walk me out. its the least you can do # Wednesday, May 12, 2010 ( 4:15 PM ) shut up christine omg one of my classmates has been so distraught over these conversations about god that she came in today with a fresh tattoo inked across her back, spanning shoulder to shoulder. the letters were still raised on her skin, i know because i sit directly behind her calligraphed across her back: "Forgive me God for I have sinned" (the 'sin' referencing this blasphemous class) gangsta. today's topic was about this perspective: "How can God possibly exist if God let (insert bad event) happen? immediately throngs of classmates come to God's defense, but that's to be expected a long time ago a highschool classmate shared a story about her grandma. there was religious persecution in her grandma's home country at the time a soldier asks grandma, then a young woman, if she believes in god she says yes he takes a spoon and scoops out her eyes in the comfort of a classroom you can be as righteous as you want but how will you be when its not comfortable? don't kill me okay but what if it is a unique quality of human nature to ask WHY did this happen (to me)? what if we, as human beings, have an intrinsic need to find reasons that give our lives meaning? what if the concept of god is just a man-made construct to help us make sense of the world, to rationalize those things we can't explain? have we created god because we NEED someone or something to look to whether its Jesus, Muhammad, L. Ron Hubbard, Sai Baba, karma, whatever/whomever...... by the way, even after all that, the grandma did not lose faith # Monday, May 10, 2010 ( 11:13 PM ) shut up christine i know this is mostly in my mind but i look forward to our 4 minute dates when you tell me about your family and ask me about my dog as we walk back to our cars muahaha # ( 12:08 AM ) shut up christine HOW CUTE IS THIS when i was a kid i loved otters and my mom bought me an XL t-shirt (i was a big girl) from sea world with a big old otter face on it and i wore it to my friend ashley's pool party and her dog attacked me good times # Sunday, May 09, 2010 ( 5:47 PM ) shut up christine i've always thought parades are excessive & extravagant i mean you spend like 3 hours on the sidewalk just to watch people walk by but its kinda nice in that thousands of people feel compelled to gather on sidewalks to clap and cheer and celebrate someone or something i secretly think they are fun and i love being a part of them this is going to make me barf all over myself in a minute but you're like a parade you make me really proud and i feel like celebrating when i see you # Thursday, May 06, 2010 ( 1:10 PM ) shut up christine another song currently on my running playlist. and this video matches so well :) the lead singer of the temper trap is dougy mandagi  the temper trap - sweet disposition # Tuesday, May 04, 2010 ( 2:59 PM ) shut up christine In loving memory of Fiyero May 10, 2008 - May 3, 2010 i met him while helping out at a red cross award ceremony, he was part of a table centerpiece. we named him Fiyero on account of his fiery red color, and also i had just seen a production of Wicked almost every single day for the last two years, he would be lying listlessly on the bottom of the tank and i would say omg he's dead! that would be his cue to wake up and get food and we would proclaim he's alive he's alive alas yesterday he did not wake. my father shook the glass vase, screaming Piyeroooo, Piyeroooooooo! it was quite dramatic, you had to be there pictures from the ceremony:   don't cry, dad!   you will be missed
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Monday, May 03, 2010 ( 9:20 AM ) shut up christine Pain is weakness leaving your body. - cardboard sign at mile 12 yesterday was the OC half marathon. all of last week i was freaking out because i haven't had a good long run in 2 months. the most i had done was 2 or 3 miles once every few weeks kc and i jogged at a snail's pace but we finished in just under 2 hours and 35 min, which is not too shabby for us! when we jogged past mile 5 i was like omg we're at mile 5 already then we pass mile 8 and i look over at kc and we're still feeling good so we keep jogging.... and before we know it we're doing the home stretch mile 13 and its over!! favorite moment: there was one part with a big hill and kc kept telling me to push hard. just before getting to the top i said kc, i need to stop but then she put her hand on my back to help me up. aww we got this all in all, good times i had a ton of fun doing the santa monica 10k in 2 weeks with raju and supe come with us? # |
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