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Tuesday, May 31, 2011 ( 12:38 PM ) shut up christine a few months back i had a positive ANA test and the doctors thought it could be lupus but i didn't have enough lupus-y symptoms so they ruled it out well a few mornings i would wake up in so much pain, sometimes unable to move it became an increasingly common occurrence and in my paranoia i started thinking oh crap what if this is the beginning?!? i thought i needed to go back to the doctor and i started mentally preparing for an achy life... yesterday i realized that i only wake up in pain at m's house. it's not lupus, it's his bed! what a relief!!! i used to have the ability to sleep almost anywhere, even standing up this is no longer the case all these years i underestimated the importance of a good comfortable bed i wonder how many people suffer, take meds, and/or see chiropractors unnecessarily due to the wrong kind of bed :( in other news here's a picture of leah's first time at the pool. so cute!  Sunday, May 22, 2011 ( 2:47 AM ) shut up christine m and i regularly dig through trashcans for aluminum cans and plastic bottles to recycle its more about keeping stuff out of landfills than it is about money (our last trip to the recycle center earned us a whopping $3.72) but we have a running inside joke that we're gonna get filthy stinkin rich. finding a trashcan with lots of aluminum cans is like scoring the jackpot our newest thing is replaying non-winning scratcher lotto tickets we've entered 68 scratchers this month, 67 of which were found on the sidewalk or in trashcans or given to us by m's friend jimmy if we win, we're gonna split the pot three ways  we'll each get one third to spend however we want (for our families and such, and for kuo. a long time ago i promised kuo i would share my lotto winnings with him) and the last third we'll put into a joint checking accountthings we would buy: - pay off school - wedding rings hehe. barf - trash grabbers - white hatchback honda civic SI (for some puzzling reason this is m's dream car) - travel somewhere. japan perhaps  how about you? update:: today alone we found 6 tickets sitting atop a lotto machine at a supermarket and 28 tickets in a park trashcan! auspicious. and one of those tickets won us $10! whoever had it didn't realize they won. lucky day # Friday, May 20, 2011 ( 9:42 AM ) shut up christine the most beautiful thing more beauty at karmatube # Wednesday, May 18, 2011 ( 11:40 PM ) shut up christine internalizing this. the following is entirely from the interaction institute blog, this one written by gibran rivera 95% Failure I was just talking to a scientist friend of mine. He told me, and I quote, that “unfortunately, in science, we fail 95% of the time, we inch along towards a breakthrough.” There is a lot of good talk about failure lately, but I don’t think I had ever heard it this way before. When I heard him say that I felt like I wished it was a widely known fact. We still place a high level of trust on science; we use it to validate almost everything. What if more of us understood how science works? Maybe we would be a lot more compassionate with ourselves! I certainly hope that we would be less afraid to try new things. Maybe we would even be less judgmental of others. And what about our organizations? I can’t help but notice the way we beat up on our own organizations. We get so frustrated that they are not perfect – as if a perfect place really existed. We beat up our leaders for our collective failures while we ourselves fail to take responsibility. But really – we are all just inching our way along. We are doing it in our personal lives and we are doing it in our organizational lives. We’ll keep on making mistakes. The important thing is to pay attention, to be thorough and rigorous with our observations, to make necessary adjustments, to try new things. Judge a little less, and be a lot less afraid, this is just the way things work.# Friday, May 13, 2011 ( 10:40 PM ) shut up christine today a patient called me all kinds of names threatened to slap me in the face (raised the hand but didn't strike) and threw an open carton of milk at my head (it was mostly empty though) unfazed! wipe milk from your face and carry on
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Wednesday, May 11, 2011 ( 12:50 PM ) shut up christine old unpublished drafts 4/2/08 what is the difference between a handmade gift and a store bought one? bringing a home cooked dish, or take-out, to a potluck? does it matter, in the grand scheme of things? both are of value. i am struggling with this concept money changes things 3/1/07 hmmm mysterious brown stains under my desk.... the culprit: my feet (achilles) bleed on the carpet when i take off my work heels 2/28/07 yesterday was a scary day i had a talk with R, it was a hard day for both of us she said I've been a good boss i cried she has no idea how many times i've almost quit 3/12/05 what round was this? i lost count who would've known that the one thing I wanted so badly to hear would be the very reason for ending it? for good this time? why do we do this rewind 14 hours rewind six and a half months so i can erase this post and insert something happy and interesting instead 2/22/07 it still happens, every time i look at my two overflowing laundry hampers so why do i have so much stuff 1/9/07 Relevance of Jungle Wisdom in Surburbia there is a tree in Belize with crackly black bark that will burn and blister your skin if you touch it. the cure for the burns is found in the wood of the Gumbolimbo, a tree with red flaky bark...kind of looks like sunburned skin flaking off the two trees will always grow next to each other in our natural medicine classes we learned to pay attention to signs - so when tree bark looks like flaky burned skin, nature is trying to tell you something - in this case, use it to treat flaky burned skin also, when nature presents a problem, sometimes the answer is right in front of you all you have to do is look. # Tuesday, May 10, 2011 ( 9:19 AM ) shut up christine  stole this pic from my sister's blog omg i want a baby too
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Wednesday, May 04, 2011 ( 11:59 PM ) shut up christine when i hear racist or homophobic or religionist or even some far-right wing rants i'm not gonna lie i think you're a fucking idiot that being said, you think the same of me, right? doesn't it piss you off that i don't get "it"? if you broke it down so that a 3 year old could understand, i'm sure we'd still argue about it all night we have more in common than you think at least i understand your anger when you feel like choking me, i want to roundhouse kick you in the face (figuratively, of course. nonviolence!) the things that seem to wedge us apart are also the things that make us one and the same and for that, i have respect for you, you ignoramus and compassion, when you are coming at me with a proverbial shank you don't know me! you don't know meee! *moves neck from left to right with every syllable* huzzah let us dance # Tuesday, May 03, 2011 ( 10:01 AM ) shut up christine yesterday was the orientation with the new nursing cohort. because i've already been through this process once before, they said it was up to me if i wanted to come meeting new people causes enough anxiety already on top of that i have all these emotions and insecurities associated with my failure but i said what the hell, and i went anyway wore my story on my sleeve it was easier than i thought :) during lunch, a group from my old cohort ambushed me with hugs i have sooo much support i am good enough i believe in myself and i deserve to be here it's going to be a really good year # Monday, May 02, 2011 ( 6:20 PM ) shut up christine in light of all the hootenannying over osama bin laden's death i am glad that the quote below is popping up all over my facebook feed I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that. --Martin Luther King, Jr# |
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