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Monday, October 31, 2011 ( 9:22 AM ) shut up christine over the weekend, two of my friends, shwetha and sriram, got married this is a small snippet of the poem sriram wrote to shwe when he proposed to her i would i wish i could've made it down to texas to celebrate with them. they are two of the most exceptional human beings i know. shwetha and sriram, you don't read this but i send you all my blessings # Sunday, October 30, 2011 ( 11:48 AM ) shut up christine my intestines have been acting weird for the last few months there was a stretch of time when i had to wear two pairs of underwear with my white nursing uniform, if ya know what i mean i thought it might be due to stress, but i also feared the diarrhea meant i was becoming lactose intolerant :( then amy stopped over one night and ate my cooking (i only heated up frozen veggie gyoza) and she had diarrhea too so maybe i'm not lactose intolerant, maybe i'm just food poisoning myself which is quite possible, i'm a terrible cook anyway just to be sure i'm going vegan til the end of the year to rule out lactose intolerance tonight we will be making vegan raw cashew and chai spice ice cream with pineapples via kawani's recipe at crafty earth mama i've been stalling on this because, frankly, it sucks. who cares about a little diarrhea as long as i still have my nutella, goat cheese, paneer tikka masala, and flaming hot cheetos. but yesterday i was thinking about some of the little kiddies i'm taking care of who have diet restrictions and they have to give up their favorite foods too and if they can do it, i can do it # Friday, October 28, 2011 ( 7:26 PM ) shut up christine today i witnessed two babies' births (c-sections) i remember things like the smell of burning layers of yellow fat over red tissue. oddly, reminded me of lasagna one of the mothers was 51 years old she hemorrhaged and lost over 1500 cc of blood (1000cc is a liter) i remember the blood pouring out of her body like a waterfall seconds after the birth, we begin our assessment on baby as we're wiping the blood off his body, his little hand takes hold of my pinky life is beautiful # Monday, October 24, 2011 ( 9:46 AM ) shut up christine the other day i was in the nicu (neonatal intensive care unit) spent a lot of my shift holding babies just holding them one baby was born with his intestines outside of his stomach (gastroschisis) when someone annoys or hurts me i think to myself, they were once a baby so innocent and it's hard to stay mad at them anyway, here is Wee at a pumpkin patch over the weekend. isn't she adorbz? i love this little person so much   Thursday, October 20, 2011 ( 4:21 PM ) shut up christine say what you want about facebook i love the things my friends show me via vivek via sonali - occupy wall street map  via seema. (translation: love - take as much as you need)  via bhairavi  via guri - from unesco youth conference in Paris that she attended  via D'Lo Monday, October 17, 2011 ( 11:23 AM ) shut up christine it is ridic to nurse others back to health when i treat my own body like crap. common sense!  for the rest of the year i will challenge myself to treat my body welli deserve to give myself the best care possible, right? i'm putting it down here to hold myself accountable to the universe Health Goals: - eat breakfast EVERY morning - get a juicer to juice my veggies. replace most of my coffee with veggie juices. update: juicer ordered! - drink lots of H20. i bought a purple water bottle exactly for this purpose :) i will drink at least 1 bottle (18oz) throughout the school day - meditate 10 minutes every day. this is totally low-balling so i - yoga every tues with crystal - run at least once a week. i will run every sunday, at the very least, because its my day off and i have no excuse not to very reasonable! song on my running playlist that makes me feel better # Sunday, October 16, 2011 ( 10:37 AM ) shut up christine  we just started our pediatrics and labor & delivery rotations which means we're going to DELIVER BABIES holy moly. its weird because i'm NOWHERE NEAR READY to even begin to think about having babies right now but my uterus does cartwheels every time i see my baby niece also i think taking care of sick kiddos in peds will be emotionally challenging for me poor makoto. he'll be on an emotional rollercoaster with me for the next seven weeks well it's been an emotional rollercoaster since like our first date, but now its x100 speaking of makoto i've had a really hard time getting up in the morning he starts nudging me in bed around 4:30am i usually ignore him because my pain sucks when i first wake up but we started a new thing where we put on this david guetta song and we jump up and down on the bed to wake me up. at 5 in the morning it's such a stupid little thing but i get teary-eyed. he does a lot for me Wednesday, October 05, 2011 ( 9:42 AM ) shut up christine i wish i could say these challenging moments exist to show us what we're made of that i rose to the occasion that i persevered gracefully nope. last week was a bitch. i clawed my way through it it made me sick to my stomach, literally one day i consumed so much caffeine that my body couldn't take it and i kept vomiting while studying on our last mental clinical day i had my own mental breakdown but aside from that i facilitated an activity on mandalas  
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monks spend hundreds and hundreds of hours painstakingly creating these very intricate sand paintings and do you know what they do once they finish? they take a broom and destroy it (much to the dismay of one of my patients - what?!? no. why would they do that? oh no no no and then she went on a rant about nazis) the point is the journey is more important than the end vomiting and sleep deprivation and mental breakdowns all of it my mandala  |
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