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Sunday, April 29, 2012 ( 11:14 PM ) shut up christine  then i'll be done with nursing school done done can you believe it? hug me. i have run through a gamut of emotions these last few weeks one particularly rough shift at the hospital i said to my preceptor oh f@ck my coping mechanisms are breaking down and then i cried quietly in a corner of the nursing station good times someone asked me what my plans are once i graduate no concrete plans, i haven't thought that far ahead but i would like to find a tree in a quiet place, and sit under it (picture above is unrelated) # Friday, April 13, 2012 ( 2:19 PM ) shut up christine  Pickles say relax how not to stress right now, i am sitting on my bed with my electric blanket wrapped around my legs there was a big sale on avocados so i made a huge pot of guacamole last night and i am eating a bowl of it with a spoon. like pudding i am sipping on a fresh young coconut with a straw Pickles is curled up in her box next to my bed it's raining quietly outside and i'm not stressing i'm cool i got this handled easy peasy aint no thang i could keep going on and on. it helps me when i delude myself you know what also helps? adele's set fire to the rain when she says i set fiyahh... to the rain at the words fire and rain i make a fist with my hand and i raise my fist to the sky, and give it a good shake like a pirate inciting revolution try it today i'm going to finish as many of my papers as i can saturday and sunday i'm gonna do back-to-back 12 hour night shifts then go straight from work to class on monday morning meetings monday night, home heath clinical tuesday, class wednesday night shifts again thursday and friday next saturday morning i will sleep get through my final week of class and then i graduate. :) # Thursday, April 05, 2012 ( 11:21 AM ) shut up christine i bought biodegradable forks, 100% recycled napkins, and compostable drink ware made from corn for a potluck you know what? no one gives a crap but these cups. are made. from corn!! can you at least write your name on it and reuse it? no? you're gonna get a new cup every time you need a refill? alritey the truth is, little girl no one cares. doesn't make a damn difference you (singular) have already used/thrown away 6 forks in our 1 hour lunch period (but who's counting? not me! actually i am) i can't be the fork police. can't change people. they gon do what they gon do i tell myself it's really not about them i'm gonna keep bringing the corn cups, because it's important to me but there are times when i think to myself why do i even bother so i am sitting there, thinking these thoughts and i hear, "Kit, you want these?" a pile starts growing on my desk 2, 5, 10 empty aluminum cans and water bottles a friend checks the trashcan another checks the bottom of an empty veggie tray - yes it has the recycling symbol on it. give it to Kit thank you my faith in humanity restored # Sunday, April 01, 2012 ( 11:55 PM ) shut up christine # |
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