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Sunday, August 17, 2008 ( 1:31 PM ) shut up christine last night a man left his book in front of the jail. this was written on the first page: # Saturday, August 16, 2008 ( 7:38 PM ) shut up christine eight weeks ago i had a very intense discussion with myself which included such questions as: what kind of person do you want to be what are your strengths and flaws what is important to you what do you believe and believe in what do you want who and what do you love and what kinds of things would you like to learn... an inadvertent result of said conversation is that i stopped eating meat completely which has been difficult, at times, because in this house, a vegetable "side dish" is the clove of garlic in a big honkin mountain of meat. garlic does not even count. no it doesn't. anyhow, no meat for 8 weeks, while living in this house, is pretty incredible. and then today.... i'm hungry. there's a grilled fish on the countertop. and dude, i freakin swear... it's talking to me its saying "you're not getting enough protein. not enough protein..not enough protein..protei" so i take my fork and i stab it and i eat some. and now i feel like crap. damn it. that is all. # Tuesday, August 12, 2008 ( 2:43 AM ) shut up christine meltdown. i don't remember exactly how or when it started the expectation that i would know what to do or that i would always act a certain way or that i could fix your problem and if i couldn't, we assumed i could handle the backlash that i was strong enough to accept blame, always with humility, that i wouldn't get tired. i don't know who you think i am but i'm not her i'm tired of pretending to be. i'm sorry. i'm sorry for saying i'm sorry apologizing for mistakes that we are entitled to make asking forgiveness for being human. i don't remember how or when this started you should've known i'm not as great as you think i am post this on my eharmony profile, or what? # Thursday, August 07, 2008 ( 10:55 PM ) shut up christine how can we, as individuals, take action so that there are equal opportunities in education throughout the world? hmmmm? TA DA!!!!! Education: A Path to Empowerment Date: THIS SATURDAY! Aug 9 Time: 6pm-10pm Location: The Sikh Center of Orange County Address: 2514 Warner Ave, Santa Ana, CA 92704 [MAP] Cost: Free. ps free food. enough for 250 people! i will be heartbroken if no one comes and all this food is wasted. at the very least you can sneak in at the end and fill your tupperware with food and when i see you we can pretend you were there the whole time. omg and we have a dj hehe # Friday, August 01, 2008 ( 2:32 AM ) shut up christine sunday is international forgiveness day so we're going to have a bonfire on the beach to burn away our sins in the cleansing fires of truth. kidding. i'm wary of telling people about events like this, because it may come across kind of cultish. i've been there. NO, not in a cult, but a while back my parents were really concerned about me because i wasn't working, and kept getting rid of my clothes and stuff in my room, and was coming home late every weekend after going to the santa ana jail. i remember telling my mom that i wanted to do a vipassana meditation retreat (10 days of silence) and she totally flipped out and accused my friends of brainwashing me. its funny now, in hindsight. and understandable. my parents are hardcore traditional catholic filipinos. a large part of it was my fault because i wasn't communicating things like why i needed to be at the jail at 4 o'clock in the morning. everything is cool now, and my parents completely support me, and the work i do. anywho. Day of Forgiveness. is all about forgiveness. so we're meeting up at Cabrillo Beach this Sunday, 6pm, if anyone is interested. the point of this post is that i spent the day looking for wood for the bonfire. i call up all these pallet companies to ask if they can donate wood scraps. One man tells me I can have all the wood I want..as much as I can fit in my car, for free. fo real? so i get there, and there are crates of logs on the sidewalk that i am free to pick thru. as i'm filling up my trunk, one of the workers (Sam) comes out and hands me a pair of thick leather gloves, "so ya don't get any splinters. careful" AND he tells me to keep the gloves. sweetheart. whatever doesn't get picked up is eventually thrown away. do yourself a favor and get your free bbq/bonfire wood from these nice folks. call them first and ask for permission Pacific Pallet Company 2210 W Gaylord St, Long Beach, CA 90813 562-437-2005 # |