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Thursday, December 29, 2011 ( 10:57 AM ) shut up christine in 2011... i crossed the finish line at my first marathon makoto and i moved in together (quite a big deal) i found out i don't have lupus! i was vegan (but only for the month of november) i witnessed people dying, and people being born i went to my 10 year high school reunion (we're not little kids anymore) i finished 2/3 of nursing school. one semester left (went by so fast) i stopped drinking caffeine, and instead went to bed earlier (sleep is so much better than caffeine!) thank you 2011. it wasn't always easy, but it was fun # Monday, December 26, 2011 ( 3:43 PM ) shut up christine fleeting yesterday, in the shower, i had a vision of my perfect wedding bouquet (the fact that i am not yet engaged is totally irrelevant) when this vision came to me, i nodded my head in silence because i knew it was absolutely perfect, exactly what i wanted... a fistful of dandelions not the yellow flowers, but the white seed heads that you blow to make wishes the chances of having a dandelion bouquet are pretty slim, i think. their fragility precludes you from planning you can't order them from the florist in advance (can you?? they're weeds!) you can't pick them or store them before (they would fall apart!) i suppose in order to have a dandelion bouquet i would have to stumble upon them the morning of my wedding and even if i were to miraculously find a bunch of dandelions en route to our wedding tree one small gust of wind as i walk down the aisle and my perfect bouquet disintegrates in my hands there's the rub, and the beauty of it i've become attached to an idea that is almost impossible to have and even if i can somehow manage to get it it will literally fly from my hands once i hold it  Friday, December 23, 2011 ( 2:51 PM ) shut up christine on tuesday we went out with Monday Night Mission, an amazing volunteer group that passes out food and clothing on skid row monday through thursday (if you're in LA, i encourage you to check them out) a couple other volunteers thought makoto was homeless this is not the first time he's been mistaken but i love that about him he only wears dickies pants, a rotation of 8 t-shirts, and a couple hoodies i've looked at pictures of him from 4 years back .......same t-shirts when we were taking physiology together, our class lasted 14 weeks and for 14 weeks, he wore the same 2 outfits the entire time genuine unapologetic simplicity around this time of year, between thanksgiving and christmas, there's a huge push to buy stuff. i tell myself i DESERVE to have this, AND its on sale! there's nothing wrong with that but i don't really need these things, ya know? i'm just cluttering my house and still i crave more stuff i would like to replace my stuff with more of these "things": family time makoto time sunlight fresh air # Tuesday, December 20, 2011 ( 6:11 PM ) shut up christine Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.i remember when i met makoto for the first time we were taking physiology at compton community college first day of class -- so many students were trying to add the class that there weren't enough chairs in the lab, i asked if i could stand next to him we started our first activity measuring our pulses and plotting them on graphs he looked at mine and asked me if i exercised, because my heart rate was extra low truthfully, i have hypotension and a very low resting heart rate to begin with but in our story, i like to think my heart was skipping beats nowadays we're like an old married couple our waking moments together are spent washing dishes, adjusting our wack tv antennae to get a decent signal for channel 11, grocery shopping. arguing sometimes. last night i said a lot of things i didn't mean. i left our house at 1:30am, and drove to cerritos i can be vicious, like a rabid chihuahua i suppose these moments are our earthquakes & blossoms falling away i have never loved anyone more # Monday, December 19, 2011 ( 11:18 AM ) shut up christine via manuri # Friday, December 16, 2011 ( 12:35 PM ) shut up christine   harolds-planet.blogspot.com/ Tuesday, December 13, 2011 ( 10:50 AM ) shut up christine life oops my blog had its 10th birthday and i forgot 10 years written down i'm glad its here for me to look back on i have tried to be honest here so that when i look back, its me and not some character i made up makoto and i have been fighting i don't know if we can fix it granted, his "fighting" is still very sweet, for example, one time he made lunch for me but we had an argument so he took my food and ate it. even when he's trying to be mean, he's not really. he's a nice guy but and this is where i might get in trouble later for being so honest but here goes anyway i don't get along with his brother his twin brother evil twin brother. just kidding. i can get along with twin bro when i try, and g'lord i've been trying but sometimes i think i am just suppressing my anger, which isn't good either. recently, i blew up and finally unleashed the bitch on twin bro, which has severed my relationship with him. it totally shocked twin bro too, that's how good i was at hiding it. that's me, Drama. part of me is shaking my head, saying why are you telling people this? and why can't you rise above it? this is who i am, and i'm deeply flawed i hope makoto and i are strong enough to weather this storm i love him a lot # Thursday, December 08, 2011 ( 12:45 PM ) shut up christine holy cannoli i just walked out of my last final for this semester i have all these grand plans for our one month break that i must write down before i lose motivation
Tuesday, December 06, 2011 ( 11:29 AM ) shut up christine  useless information, finals week editioni love this vacuum: dirt devil easy lite cyclonic vac, in ebony. i believe i got it for $39.99 at target m and i thought long and hard about this purchase because our shoebox-sized house doesn't have a lot of carpet. so glad we bought it because our place gets dusty (living next door to a crematorium may have something to do with it). i vacuum twice a week (kinda calming for me) and the suction on this puppy picks up at least 1/4 cup of fine dust every time. its bagless, so less waste for the environment too. yay i love my vacuum. also, i need to get out more and my pediatric theory instructor had a patient who kept saying his cast (arm) was itchy. it's pretty normal to have some itchiness with a cast, but his itchiness was unrelenting. sometimes kids drop food or small toys into their casts, which irritate the skin anywho, they opened up the cast and guess what they found.... FUCKIN COCKROACHES!!! that is all # Sunday, December 04, 2011 ( 12:17 PM ) shut up christine  git it, girl finals week. four days away from a month-long vacation beast mode, ON # |
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