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Monday, September 29, 2008 ( 3:15 PM ) shut up christine # ( 12:29 PM ) shut up christine letter to Paul i hope you will always question yourself every single time you pull the trigger, i hope you will never blind or numb yourself to the chaos happening around you. i don't know anything and i can't even begin to imagine what it could be like. if it were the other way around, if it was my character that was being put to the test, i don't know if i could keep these promises, but i trust that you will. # Sunday, September 21, 2008 ( 10:19 PM ) shut up christine To Do List eight days: i become a certified food manager. twenty-seven days: we put on the Walk for Hope. thirty-five days: we launch a restaurant. we are kinda badass. # Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ( 11:20 PM ) shut up christine what i love about Be the Cause is that these aren't just service projects of course i want to help other people, but ultimately i am the one who benefits the most. we're beginning to plan our Awareness Monologues where the format is similar to the Vagina Monologues but in this case our topic is domestic violence. we just had our first meeting and when Supun read aloud the domestic violence checklist, in my head i was thinking check, check, check, check check check and check. immediately i said to myself oh my god, don't be dramatic. every relationship is going to have problems. no one is perfect. i was never locked in a closet or beat with a golf club, unlike someone i know. it was never like that. things happen, but i was never one of "those girls." i'm not trying to say i know better than them-- its just that i would know, or i think i would know, if it was happening to me. i would know the difference, i hope. when does a crappy relationship become domestic violence? a few of us will be going through a 40 hr domestic violence training course in preparation for this event. i know that whatever we learn is going to help us put on a really great, meaningful show, but more than anything else, this is for me. this will help ME define that line so that i have no doubt when it's being crossed. for future reference. # Wednesday, September 10, 2008 ( 11:24 PM ) shut up christine Christine, you'd be doing the world a horrible disservice to want to be me when you grow up. The world needs you... your light... your love... your most sincere, authentic self. Find out who that is (I think in your heart you already know)... and, BE that. The most precious gift you can give is to share of yourself, but this is not new information to you. You already know all of this stuff. I am just hoping to help remind you because sometimes we forget. # ( 6:53 PM ) shut up christine I guess I just keep thinking about "older" people (those in their eighties on up) and I've heard them say over and over again about how they wished they would have taken more risks... especially in love. It takes courage. Courage doesn't mean that you're not afraid, it just means that you do it in spite of being afraid. Again, you are so right. I try to 'show' it in other ways, without saying it outright. And that speaks louder, right? the message still comes across, without saying anything. Oh, Christine, Christine! What if he is doing the same thing? What if he is thinking/feeling/doing the exact same thing!?I know this is HUGE. I know it plays to all of your own insecurities and fears and all of that jazz. Just remember... that it is working through/dealing with fear and uncertainty that we grow. I'm not advocating one way or another what you do or do not. I just want to give you some things to think about. You already have all of the answers. YOU already know what to do... # Friday, September 05, 2008 ( 11:29 PM ) shut up christine paper planes. Dear darling Christine, Lots of love, Tuesday, September 02, 2008 ( 10:38 PM ) shut up christine remembering. Monday, January 29, 2007 ( 9:29 PM ) hold me! Tuesday, February 27, 2007 ( 7:56 AM ) you may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start more and more to concentrate not on the results, but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself Tuesday, May 22, 2007 ( 11:17 AM ) as much as i hate this sometimes you just need to put your head down and charge through it. Thursday, May 31, 2007 ( 2:58 AM ) this message is my own personal mental reminder of this moment so that whenever i read this in the future i will remember nights like this and i will be thankful that i don't have to do this anymore. Monday, June 11, 2007 ( 1:50 AM ) Work is (almost) done. Getting to this point has been a trip in itself. I think about all the overtime I put in to fund this...unfortunately I don't get paid overtime but I am genuinely grateful that I struggled with this job as much as I did because I appreciate every fraction of a penny I earned. For every experience I'm about to have, I know what its worth, and that feeling is something you can't put on a resume or deposit into your bank account, you know? That kind of work experience is priceless # |
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