shut up christine


Wednesday, July 27, 2011
      ( 10:51 AM ) shut up christine  
more on growing older

been thinking about some of the exciting recklessness of my youth
i thought i was so adventurous back then
lying to my parents about going to thailand by myself.
backpacking on my own for a couple months.  getting on random buses, hopping off randomly.  
sleeping on sidewalks.  selling pinatas.  following locals home.

guy in nicaragua:  i'm a photographer.  do you want to come to my house to look at my photography?
me:  okay

ended up being 4x6 photos of his last vacation trip, taken with a disposable camera.
but you know, when we went inside and he locked the front door and he asked me to sit on his bed...
for a second i was like FACK maybe i shouldn't have come here...

i have lots of stories like that
luckily nothing bad ever happened to me.

i think about the Younger Me, now
and while i remember her fondly,  Current Me is much different.
much older. (not that much, geez.  dramatic)

not a bad thing.  just an observation
time flies
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Sunday, July 24, 2011
      ( 4:54 PM ) shut up christine  
positivity!

 
prints by ParadaCreations on etsy
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      ( 9:45 AM ) shut up christine  
beautiful day

 
you see this picture
it's the view from my bed

peaceful, no?

then i looked closely
at the reflection in the first pot on the left
on the right side of the pot...it kinda looks like the reflection of a man... wearing a suit.  sitting on the edge of the bed.  he has a white shirt and striped tie...do you see it?  you can barely make me out but i am lying on the bed taking the picture.  looks like there are 2 figures standing behind the bed as well (shadows maybe?  the wall behind our bed is totally blank)

i am home alone.  this picture was taken 10 minutes ago

i am probably imagining this to distract myself from studying but i do live next to a cemetery.  we share one fence with the Rosedale Cemetery, and another fence with the Dae Han Mortuary

that is all.  don't freak out

back to studying


 
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Saturday, July 23, 2011
      ( 12:39 PM ) shut up christine  
just got a call from my former clinical instructor, whom i haven't seen in months

she just wanted to say hi, and wish me good luck on my test on monday
and to call her if i need anything, even if its just a quiet place to study

i have a little knot in my throat right now.  so much gratitude
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Friday, July 22, 2011
      ( 4:41 PM ) shut up christine  
things i would like to do before turning 29

-  finish nursing school
-  order a CSA box subscription
-  and learn how to cook for real, like how to properly hold a knife
-  bake bread in our rice cooker (ours has a bread function) i want to make cornbread
-  complete the entire Insanity program, once
-  go dancing with makoto (he's 35 years old and has never been!)
-  run at least once a week
-  learn how to parallel park.  omg this has been on my list forever.  i WILL parallel park, confidently and quickly, by my 29th birthday.  mark my words...
- manage my time better (i am finally getting a handle on this)
-  sleep at a decent hour.  get at least 6 hours of sleep each night
-  spend more time with Wee (my baby niece)
-  wear my bathing suit.  who gives a fack if my dimpled stomach hangs out?  sunlight at the beach is too good to waste
-  make a conscious effort to smile more often
-  visit Animal Acres
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Wednesday, July 20, 2011
      ( 11:29 AM ) shut up christine  

i have a sparkly star-shaped dish sponge.
i like washing dishes with it
it makes dish washing more pleasant

i wish i had a sparkly star sponge equivalent for the tedious reconciling of excel sheets with bank statements to figure out why there's a $2000 discrepancy from two years ago
*bangs head against wall*
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Sunday, July 17, 2011
      ( 10:22 AM ) shut up christine  
on turning 28

sometime in the last year, making my bed every morning became a high priority
it became important.
i might even say that i enjoy it 

funny what makes you happy as you get older
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Sunday, July 10, 2011
      ( 9:41 AM ) shut up christine  
sometimes i go for weeks or months craving one specific thing all the time
in the past, my obsessions have included:
- biscuits
- macaroni and cheese (ironically i have an aversion to mac & cheese, for the moment)
- orange juice
- mcdonald's soft serve vanilla ice cream cones
- eggs, over-easy or sunny side up

right now i'm totally into potatoes.
potato potata

also, i've been playing a new game
i set my timer for 1 hour increments
i must be completely focused until the buzzer goes off
no getting up, checking email, facebook.
studying only.
been playing this game 6-7 hours a day.
it's not that fun :(

no, it IS fun.  say it.
this is fun
studying is fun
studying is fun
look how fun this is

i know this song is about sex but it works for studying too.
push harder, you're almost there now
you can do it, i believe in you baby
motivation go go go go
omg this is how i spent my study break




destroy this test, mother effa
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Tuesday, July 05, 2011
      ( 10:17 AM ) shut up christine  
heart my new neighbors and their illegal fireworks
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