shut up christine


Monday, August 30, 2010
      ( 11:01 PM ) shut up christine  
did i mention that i'm on my period and I AM PSYCHO

today i almost broke up with m
long story short, m comes from behind, locks my arms above my head and proceeds to vigorously tickle my armpits
meanwhile i am writhing on the floor screaming bloody murder in between pain-induced laughs

after a few minutes of these shenanigans i get all serious and yell GET OUT and collapse facedown on my bed
then we have a 'talk'
i say this is a dealbreaker i take tickling VERY seriously i hate it how can our relationship progress if i'm living in constant fear where is the trust blah blah blah
i almost ended the best thing in my life because of......tickling

m is a kind and patient person
god help him
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Saturday, August 28, 2010
      ( 8:53 PM ) shut up christine  
It is a privilege to be witness to and attend to another's suffering.
- hiromi hiraoka


first week of school has come and gone
we've covered a lot of ground but so far so good
my cohort rocks.  they are on it
i'm up by 4am everyday but i will sleep earlier from now on.  time management.  balance.
my apartment has character
there's a big green penis spraypainted on the sidewalk in front of my complex
hiromi told me about the ghost in my building but she cleared her away and then kawani burned sage so all is good in the hood
one night m came over to help me set up my internet but i passed out on my bed shortly after.  when i jolted awake at 3am i didn't see him so i figured he peaced out :(
he was actually in the kitchen cooking and packing my lunch.  at 3am y'all.  he always does things like that
i'm on my period and i am thisclose to crying so i'm gonna stop.  i love him very very much
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Friday, August 20, 2010
      ( 11:57 AM ) shut up christine  
lots of cute pics of my sister's baby shower on genee's blog
all photo credits to the amazing genee
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010
      ( 12:33 PM ) shut up christine  
what the hell is going on?!

i often ask that question when i'm watching filipino tv
one show in particular, Rosalka, is all kinds of crazy so i ask my aunt to translate for me
it's about an outcast hunchback girl with an alien living in her hump. said alien crawls out of her back at night to kill people
apparently this is a true story according to my uncle, who chimes in to say "and that is why you should never go to Antique" (because stuff like this happens there. incidentally my dad's family is from there)
explains everything! my dad is carrying an evil alien in his stomach!

i just told my dad that his ginormous belly is actually housing an evil alien and he needs to see a witch doctor asap!
he says NO, he won't accept it. if it's true he will kill himself

omg so dramatic

update: i kid you not, shortly after posting this my dad puts ginger on his stomach (because duh, ginger kills aliens)

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Tuesday, August 17, 2010
      ( 2:44 PM ) shut up christine  


6 days left

yesterday was our program orientation and our faculty is so diverse and amazing.  i feel inspired and motivated
this was the right choice :)

from the beginning i've been hesitant to get into a serious relationship
i have to dedicate my life to school right now
i'm only moving to la but i've been saying goodbyes to friends & mentally preparing myself to disappear for a while

m's been supportive through it all
he does things like stock my fridge with groceries
i came home once to find he had installed a rear rack on my bicycle for all my books
and i'm anemic so when we get chinese takeout he puts all the broccoli on my plate
so sweet.

i thought that by keeping myself completely focused, i would be strong enough to do this on my own.
how foolish :)
m, i know you don't read this, but i need you. i'm so grateful for you and i appreciate everything you do for me

its funny because m came to the family portion of the orientation...i don't know what scary things they said but afterward he was acting like this was the last time we were ever gonna see each other.  i even asked him if he was breaking up with me (luckily he said no, phew)
we are in this together

i also want to thank everyone else for their support - amy, ben, kermit, raju, melisa, hiromi, nanet and so many others - thank you for helping me keep my sanity

here we go
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Thursday, August 05, 2010
      ( 2:18 PM ) shut up christine  
but this is real life

speaking of marriage
i am chatting online with the old love of my life and he says he finally realizes that i'm perfect for him and he's gonna return to the states to win me back!

even i, the eternal optimist, know that some things are impossible :(

one kind of love just is. effortless.
another deeper kind of love, i think, takes a crapload of work and you have to work hard at it, everyday. it's naive to reappear years later believing that it's still here

if you love someone, don't wait tell them now

everybody knows - john legend
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      ( 7:48 AM ) shut up christine  
hooray! good morning h8ers


yesterday my entire family was in the garage when we heard the good news
i immediately turn to my father and say phew, now i can get married!
he laughs nervously & i think he is silently giving thanks to god that m is my boyfriend
then i have a one-person parade and ride my bike around the block, ringing my bicycle bell
and i say honk if you're happy that prop 8's been overturned!!
and my sister says honk honk honk

chamillionaire - good morning
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Wednesday, August 04, 2010
      ( 2:58 PM ) shut up christine  
via my friend vivek kashyap
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Tuesday, August 03, 2010
      ( 12:41 PM ) shut up christine  
minus fifteen inches

before

after
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Sunday, August 01, 2010
      ( 9:18 AM ) shut up christine  
life was so different a year ago

we are not just hands holding out flowers
we are real people
and the choices that other people make impact our lives profoundly
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