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Friday, June 29, 2012 ( 11:39 AM ) shut up christine internal revolution A client with diabetic neuropathy reports a burning, electrical-type pain in the lower extremities that is not responding to nonsteroidal antiinflammatory drugs. The client complains that the pain is particularly worse at night. Which medication will you advocate for first? 1. Amitriptyline (Elavil) 2. Corticosteroids 3. Hydromorphone (Dilaudid) 4. Lorazepam (Ativan) studying for boards now, and meds are not my forte. the answer to the question above: elavil elavil is an antidepressant (for treating depression). corticosteroids are for pain associated with inflammation, and dilaudid is an opioid (for pain, also). ativan is an anxiolytic (for anxiety). but the antidepressant is the answer.... as i sit here trying to understand the logic behind this and 100 other questions like it, my mind keeps wandering back to this and all that is deficient about my education. i imagine hundreds of thousands of nursing & medical students studying this same info, in turn practicing our knowledge on billions of patients something about it....doesn't make sense. enough soapbox. i just want to say that this movie changed my life. watch it if you have time, it's available streaming online on netflix also, i read this and cried. The Business 9 Women Kept a Secret for Three Decades when i read something like this, i can't help but strive to be a better human # Tuesday, June 26, 2012 ( 12:17 PM ) shut up christine i still crave meat it's easier now than it was 5 years ago but when i'm stressed i specifically crave fried chicken. we had a popeyes right across from my nursing school and sometimes when i'd drive by i could smell it and i'd be like f@ck you i still dream about my dad's adobo, my most favorite food, ever. in the whole universe that's part of it though, the sacrifice. if it was easy and if i didn't have to work at it, then it wouldn't mean as much to me luckily thankfully gratefully there are some really good fake meats out there a few weeks ago we bought some gardein beefless tips, then forgot about them because they were hiding behind a box of popsicles in our freezer  and i was like woah dude that looks like meat smells like meat... tastes just like meat... the texture is oddly meaty.... OMG MAKOTO IS THIS MEAT?!? makoto hasn't had beef in twenty years its trippy. when you cook it, meatish juices come out obviously we're biased because we haven't had real beef for years....but try it. cook it for someone and don't tell them it's not meat and see what they say i'm going to give my dad a bag and ask him to make me adobo # Sunday, June 24, 2012 ( 2:49 AM ) shut up christine it's past 2:30am and i'm looking at wedding stuff ps i'm still not engaged (still doesn't matter)
i've decided to go with a loose messy braid, something along these lines:
  and these are bouquets i love. in all honesty i'm probably not gonna have flowers but i've just spent the last hour on google/pinterest looking at them. totally logical. my favorite:  i like the "just picked" look of these. simple and pretty      
i threw in pictures of fairy tale eggplants from here and here because they're adorable and delicious and i want to add them to my urban porch garden.
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also, if i were to give wedding favors it would probably be something like a small basket of fruit/fairy tale eggplant/veggies. 
like so
we're only having a small family ceremony -- 15 people at most, which makes me and my wedding blogging even more psycho
Wednesday, June 20, 2012 ( 11:47 AM ) shut up christine close your eyes and listen to 1:05-1:40 if i ever go deaf, the last sounds i want to listen to are quiet drums like the one in this song # Monday, June 18, 2012 ( 5:14 PM ) shut up christine  Sunday, June 17, 2012 ( 2:12 PM ) shut up christine on days like today, gently clasp your hands around your boyfriend's face, and with a teary twinkle in your smiling eyes, wish him a very happy father's day i'm not preggo but i enjoy scaring makoto. keeps the relationship exciting. also sometimes when we go for walks, i hold my belly and my back and i pretend to waddle like a pregnant woman. i don't know why i do this, but its fun. also, i am not engaged, this does not stop me from looking at wedding dresses :) these are some of the dresses i liked, something flowy and suitable for tree climbing. ideally i would like to spend no more than $250 
$215. i have a feeling i'm gonna go with this one. wow that was suprisingly easy!
 
$194. the more i look at this, the less i like it :/
$119.
$180. definitely would replace the strap though
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Friday, June 15, 2012 ( 11:02 AM ) shut up christine i am the worst panelist ever. i'm not so good at speaking. we've known this for a while. i've improved since my pseudo-mute days but i'm still kind of a mess. i tell myself to keep trying, stay calm, and speak from the heart. unfortunately the language of my heart is awkward and incoherent most of the time. my tongue likes to do its own dance, and i often struggle to get thoughts and words out i admire people who are able to express themselves easily, who are funny, who say things that are meaningful. if you are one of these people, please don't take your words for granted # Wednesday, June 13, 2012 ( 4:09 PM ) shut up christine five things  # Tuesday, June 12, 2012 ( 12:11 PM ) shut up christine i recently ran into a once very close friend, after a long absence. he wrote me later that night, apologizing for things that had happened in the past and asked if we could be friends again one day i said no i remember a long time ago we battled it out in your car i remember thinking in the middle of this fight that it didn't have to be this way i could get out of the car and come back in and we could start the conversation over had i said yes what would our new friendship look like? do you want to be in my life now? do you just want us to be facebook friends? would it be enough for me to verbally say of course we are friends and always will be, even though in real life we are strangers? can we ever trust each other again with anything that remotely matters? just before we abandoned each other back then, i thought that if we tried really hard we could salvage scraps of our friendship. you asked, with a clarity i didn't have at the time, what would be the value in that there are sayings like time heals all wounds on a sidenote: i have a scar on my shoulder from a bug bite i got in india 5 years ago, that turned into a golf ball sized abscess, that popped and left a gaping crater. it eventually healed over with itchy scar tissue, but over the years another abscess has emerged underneath, and i'll most likely need surgery now to get it removed none of these questions are supposed to be answered. i didn't have a point when i sat down to write this, other than i just needed to write it. i'm not going to put in in a different, happier ending this is our real life it is what it is, and everything is perfect # Sunday, June 10, 2012 ( 1:35 PM ) shut up christine  ekatva came and went :) i have so much to say but i always have trouble articulating important things the day they left i came home to the beautiful aftermath paintbrushes in the sink, stacks of papers on the floor butcher paper on the walls kitchen table invisible under piles of envelopes, flyers, & boxes i spent friday organizing and rearranging things (in life. cleaned the house a bit too) now that i've had a little time to process all that's happened in the last month i'm feeling so inspired  i wish him joy and happiness but above all this i wish him love -whitney/dolly lyrics # |
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