i hate that i think of him.
when i'm ordering food for myself, i hate that i wonder if he's hungry
when i'm shopping, i hate that things remind me of him
i hate that sometimes i buy those things, for him
with no intention of giving them
because he's married to someone else
why do i do that?
do i enjoy wasting my time and money?
do i enjoy torturing myself
i wish i could just get over you already
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