we just started our pediatrics and labor & delivery rotations

which means we're going to DELIVER BABIES

holy moly.

its weird because i'm NOWHERE NEAR READY to even begin to think about having babies right now 

but my uterus does cartwheels every time i see my baby niece

also i think taking care of sick kiddos in peds will be emotionally challenging for me

poor makoto.  he'll be on an emotional rollercoaster with me for the next seven weeks
well it's been an emotional rollercoaster since like our first date, but now its x100

speaking of makoto

i've had a really hard time getting up in the morning

he starts nudging me in bed around 4:30am

i usually ignore him because my pain sucks when i first wake up

but we started a new thing where we put on this david guetta song and we jump up and down on the bed to wake me up. at 5 in the morning

it's such a stupid little thing but i get teary-eyed.  he does a lot for me