( 1:56 AM ) shut up christine
healthy
just finished chatting online with my very first (ex)boyfriend
he gave me relationship advice, of all things. go figure :)
the last time i ever saw him in person (february 2006, thank you trusty blog)
i traced words into his back with my finger for him to guess, except i wrote a paragraph and he lost track. i walked out of his house and when i looked back to shut the door, he hadn't gotten up off the couch, tv was still on. i waited by my car for like a minute, took another minute to adjust my seat and mirrors.
he never came out so i went home. haven't seen him since
no juicy fight, no screaming, no throwing of things. how anticlimactic. its kind of disappointing that something that seemed so life shattering was so....ordinary. it took us a long time to become okay again, and we still haven't talked about 'it.'
in my next failed relationship i want to go out big. its not healthy to keep it inside so quietly.
dear next ex-boyfriend, let's
- have a closing ceremony at the beach and burn all our sentimental items in a bonfire
- make voodoo dolls
- write all the things we hate about each other on a pinata, then beat it to a pulp and give all the candy to orphans
- have a ten-minute crying contest and whoever sheds the most tears gets $500
- at the very least let's have a proper goodbye. give me a hug and walk me out. its the least you can do
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