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Sunday, May 02, 2004 ( 2:14 PM ) shut up christine confessions confessions confesiones some things are better left unsaid, some things need to be heard… and then there are some things that fit in-between, the times where it wouldn’t have mattered much if you had said them or not. There are a million in-betweens I could have said, but couldn’t, and it was no big deal I wanted to, but something always came in between (wow no pun intended) the timing wasn’t right, or it might have been awkward, or I was too shy, too embarrassed, or too proud.. and it really isn’t a big deal but I think about them, and sometimes they keep me awake. if I wasn’t a mute, I would tell you face to face I would tell Chen Chieng, my teacher for wr 31, that something he said had a profound impact on me, and that his class was, and still is, my favorite. I would tell Dominic, senior year of high school, that I was two steps away but I got nervous and turned around. I wanted to ask you though, and I think we would’ve had fun. I would tell the old people on the weezer message boards from summer 2001 that they crack me up and I love them. I would tell that one super shy guy from one of the spop dances (I forgot his name) that I’m so happy he danced with me…really really happy. I would tell my old hamster, Lamuel, that I’m glad he kept me company last year that one week when I stayed in. I didn’t say it out loud because hey he’s a hamster, but I think he would have appreciated it. I would tell that stranger at the Finch show who let me rest on him and who held my waist so I wouldn’t fall down in the pit, I would tell him thanks and I’d give him a hug. I would write letters to my Grandma when she went back to the Philippines. I would tell Steve that I call him blood drive boy because when I first saw him, I was donating blood, and when he walked in my bag of blood filled up in twenty seconds because my heart was pumping so fast. I would tell Kuo that I’m glad you IMed me freshman year after all those months, because I missed talking to you. I would tell Amit that I’m sorry and I wish I had taken that picture. I would say something to Carlos, doesn’t matter what I’d say, as long as it was something, anything. I have more in-betweens to say but I’m going to be late for work..it feels kinda good to say all this stuff, I'm gonna try to do it more often, not just on here, but face to face. #
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