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Monday, December 10, 2007 ( 3:42 AM ) shut up christine i just came back from a weekend trip to houston. i have a friend who pushes me harder than anyone i know. and sometimes it sucks. because there are times when i convince myself no.NO.no.just no.this is impossible, it cannot be done. and he, without even knowing what i'm thinking, will totally prove me wrong. then i'm like, shit! now i have no excuse. i can't go back to being ignorant. now it's my responsibility, to humanity (no pressure) and i am forced to become better than what i am, whether i want to or not. its like this quote: Man's mind, once stretched by a new idea, never regains its original dimension. i told him this weekend that it scares me when he expects these great things from me because i know eventually i will let him down. and he said its okay...let me down. that's the whole story, i don't know why but i needed to type it out. anyway, i got the email below from thu-trang and i thought it was nicely said: "I am not afraid of anything anymore" I believe my friend Rachel has this tattooed on the small of her back after she got divorced and came out as a lesbian. Fear is something we all grapple with and are paralyzed by in this or that situation, in few or in many. We know it when we stop breathing but continue living anyway. We realize it when we reset our hearts and consciously try to breathe rythmically again, as I do when I'm driving in a hurry somewhere amidst a crapload of traffic. I would like to think that this life is an exercise in losing fear much like losing the training wheels on our bike. Fear in a way has helped us to avoid accidents, to prevent loss of limb, loss of life. But as we get older, and wiser, we realized that we've nothing to really fear. Fear takes up room in ourselves where peace and calm should be. I hope that you all will do or think something each day to vanquish small and big fears, fears of small and big things. I think we're so much more beautiful when we're fearless. Alluringly, even brazenly fearless. Check out this picture to see how others in far corners of the world go to face and conquer face. Amazing. http://photoblog.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2007/11/28/485435.aspx "Japanese yamabushi, mountain ascetics, hang from cliffs to overcome fear, during their spring austerity training in the Kumano mountain range of western Japan, April 28, 2007. Yamabushi are practitioners of Shugendo, an ancient Japanese nature religion which incorporates original mountain worship of Japan with Tantric Buddhism and Taoism." Love everything more to fear oneself less. Looking forward, peace, Thu-Trang #
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