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Tuesday, February 12, 2008 ( 1:44 PM ) shut up christine since valentine's day is around the corner  lately i've been thinking a lot about people i love, and people who love me this last week has been crazy i hurt a friend badly, unknowingly, because they love me. i didn't understand how much this person loved me, until i saw how angry she was and i remember sitting there, absorbing the sting of this anger, realizing WOAH THIS IS LOVE. its interesting how just like kisses and hugs, anger and disappointment are vehicles of love sometimes they are even more effective at showing it anyway, at any time i may get a call and i will drop everything and jump on a plane to Alaska because i want to be there for my friend if he needs me. another friend, the friend who pushes me hard is pushing me even harder when i decided not to go back to school for my masters (in public service), he said now my real education will begin. and we will do all the things that i would have been learning in school. hopefully, this year i will learn the real meaning of service. he is giving me so much, by asking so much of me and i am humbled that he loves me enough to trust me with things like this. i am noticing this side of love more and more often the ugly, angry, or painful side or the side you feel when you are effing exhausted and you are asking yourself WHY AM I DOING THIS RIGHT NOW?!?? when it would feel so good to fall asleep but you stay awake, and you know why. it is so crazy what we will give, and give up, for the people we love. #
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