( 12:16 PM ) shut up christine
When there's nothing left to burn
You have to set yourself on fire
- lyric from some song Kuo sent me
oh geez i'm having a crisis
i would love to blame this on my period
my whole life is just one major case of PMS.
i want to find a breaking point
i want to break my legs (but not really, knock on wood)
i want to break down
i want to crack
i want it to be hard. i want a challenge
i want it to hurt. is that weird?
am i crazy?
the best way for me to explain it is to compare it to my goryo
which was not even that hardcore
but i will never forget the morning of the seventh day when I broke my fast
i took a bite of my peanut butter and jelly sandwich and the damage was done -
from that moment on, the way i looked at food was different.
i could actually taste the difference.
and that taste has stayed in my mouth
it's not the food, the food is exactly the same. it's me
you know what i mean?
i want that
i want things to taste differently
#
|
|
