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Monday, April 14, 2008 ( 8:50 PM ) shut up christine giving. this past weekend was Change of Heart, which was incredible and i will have to write more about it later but there's one thing i wanted to mention i hadn't brought any blankets so Sukh offers me his sleeping bag and pillow i tell him aw no thanks, its a warm night i'll be fine of course he won't have any of it, for 15 minutes we argue back and forth in the end i'm bundled up in his sleeping bag but i CAN'T freakin sleep because i know he's freezing and i'm MAD!! its my own freakin fault that i didn't bring a blanket. it's painful taking from someone when you know they have to go without, or that they, in a way, will suffer by giving and i hate that but i'm learning that sometimes you have to let them. swallow your pride and let them give to you. second lesson: i had just told Sukh this weekend how much i love! reading the info@bethecause.org emails, its my favorite thing, the best part of my day. today we had a conversation about empowerment and giving people opportunities to serve. then he makes a suggestion: maybe i should pass the responsibility on to someone else. in my head i'm thinking HELL NO!! I LOVE THIS WHY WOULD I DO THAT? and therein the question lies the answer, this is exactly why i need to give it up. as much as i would want to keep doing it for myself, it's not about me. i'm kind of sad, but honestly what a beautiful thing to share with someone else arre, he is always helping me grow. #
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