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Friday, October 31, 2008 ( 9:33 PM ) shut up christine painful okay. it is impossible to have this conversation in person so i will let it out here. for time's sake i will cut out years of background info and begin the story with this: i wish you would go back to church. i pray everyday for you... oops i should preface this with a flashback to first grade. i will gently remind everyone that at the age of six i had decided to commit my life to God. i wanted to be a nun. i pretended to be one. i used to carry a little black pocketbook with my miniature bible and rosary and i would park myself under a tree and pray. and without getting too deep into the details, i stopped going to church somewhere around 2002 i think. i remember being so livid that i was ready to walk out of mass, but i forced myself to listen to the whole thing. and at the end of the homily the congregation gave a standing ovation, and my legs were shaking. hate speech, under the pretense of religion, is still hate speech. and christine bulaoro is not okay with that. so i stopped going to that church where i grew up and went to school, and i don't think anyone really cared except maybe the two people i live with, also known as my parents. and even though they can't talk about it, i want them to know that i never stopped believing in God. i always believed, even at age 6, that God is love. LOVE. that's it. treat others as you would want to be treated. love your enemies. love your neighbors, period. NOT love your neighbors if and only if they fit into this box.... for the most part, my beliefs have remained the same. To quote the Dalai Lama, "My religion is kindness." i never stopped believing that, its just that the message at this particular parish no longer resonated with my voice. and over time, we fit less and less. i'm not trying to bash Catholics. Me and Catholicism, we go way back. and although I'm not Catholic anymore, its not like i can forget who i am or where i came from #
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