( 8:38 PM ) shut up christine
re-evaluating 2009
a few months ago i tried to comfort myself by asking what's the worst that could happen?
and then the worst happened.
i told myself to shut up you self-absorbed twat, because there are people out there with real problems.
meanwhile i tried my best to pretend that this hole wasn't here, but failed, most days.
a few months have passed since then, and although i still can't honestly say that i'm perfectly fine and everything is just great...
i can confidently say that
i'm still breathing (huge revelation, i know.)
i have to take a lot of slow deep breaths, but, i'm still breathing :)
the other day i was at the gym
at the end of my run i looked down at the treadmill dashboard and i had run over 5 miles, surprisingly it wasn't difficult.
its amazing how things get so much easier over time
5 miles would've been impossible a few months ago
i've come a long way.
mark, in all his genius, responded to my initial question by asking what's the best that could happen?
and the best is happening now
i'm getting through it, one breath after another
so much good has come out of this, so many choices and changes.
like shwe would say, we can only grow from here
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