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milestones

my body is changing

i don't mean outward appearance, although i'm sure that will change a little as well

last year i experienced firsthand that physical appearance is no indication of health when i lost weight without trying but was all shitty on the inside.  during that time someone said no fair i want to be super stressed so that i can lose weight too

given the choice, i would take {fat and mentally sound} over {skinny and crazy}, any day.

anyway i can feel my body changing from the inside

i feel my legs adjusting to longer runs and higher speeds

when its painful, i imagine my little alveoli struggling to absorb enough air into my bloodstream and (silently, of course) i tell them you guys are doing great, keep going just a little bit longer!! and then we raise the bar a little higher than it was the day before

i feel my heart pumping better and my lungs getting stronger

i hit mile 5...then 6...7 is coming up

and i feel...... great!

kya baat hai when did this happen?

for once, my ultimate goal isn't to lose 10 pounds or fit into a dress or finish a marathon.

there is no end goal this time. i'm just happy to be running