I'm sure you won't want to know what I have to say about these things but I'm saying them anyway...
Every person with a heart is a train wreck, especially the ones (like you) with warm hearts. I wish I knew why but I don't. I don't know much. Ask around.

I sure don't know your situation but I would just say that if someone means that much to you you have to talk to them. It's cheating both your hearts not to. It's easy enough to mess everything up in person; DO NOT trust the internet (even your kind words on the internet) to make your feelings clear. What seems to you like an impossible train wreck might seem to him like a great thing, and it never hurts to stay positive and really FIND OUT, right?

That said, the PS post: perfect.

I really do wish you the best, my distant friend. :)