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Wednesday, September 22, 2010 ( 4:12 AM ) shut up christine well. it is tuesday of week 5 one month down and only eleven more to go i rocked my first few tests and i admit, i thought i was the shit. that lasted about a minute cause then i got a C. and then another one. fuck. i came in with these delusional expectations yes, it would be difficult, but i would persist and graduate summa cum laude! i would be so well versed in medicinal interactions that i would catch multiple errors (stop! don't give that patient aspirin, he's on coumadin!) saving legions of patients from unnecessary complications thereby earning the trust and respect of the doctors, nurses, and my colleagues........ the reality is it's week five and i'm tired. my ego is bruised. i really wanted the highly competitive kaiser scholarship/fellowship awarded to only 1 or 2 students per cohort (they'll pay half your tuition and hire you after you graduate) but i need to get As to be eligible and it's slipping out of my reach note to self: to hell with the damn kaiser scholarship. i came here to learn, especially from my mistakes. it's okay. don't beat yourself up. my ultimate goal is not to be summa or a fellow. i am here is to become a work toward that and everything is going to be fine :) #
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If I were in a situation where I needed a nurse to save my life, and I had the choice between a nurse who got straight A's in school and never messed up, or a nurse who had some small setbacks but took them seriously enough that she (or he) always remembered the lessons they taught, I'd choose the second nurse every time.
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It's been my experience that the people I know who are REALLY good at what they do, ALL had setbacks and doubts at some point. I think there's great value to knowing you can't always be right; it opens up great doors of thinking that the Straight-A people might never realize are there. Your note to self is great. Peace, C, and hang in there. You'll be fine. :) # posted by
 : 9/22/2010 2:43 PM |
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