( 3:41 PM ) shut up christine
detox
as i transition to a vegan diet --temporarily--
because i'm not sure i will maintain it after december.....and i'm okay with that. it's a big deal, ya know? it's one of those significant decisions that will require a lot of thought on my part
anyway
during this transition, it's like i can feel my little neurons attempting to shift as well.
anytime i put an edible into my mouth (which is all the dang time)
i pause first
like, say a friend offers me an altoid
why thank you don't mind if i do and right before i pop it into my mouth, an awareness pokes me in the ribs and screams WAIT!! did you check?!
dammit there's gelatin in it
and that's what goes on in my head all day long
granted, i will not die if i have an altoid
but there's a mindfulness and self-discipline with food that must be present, constantly
which is a good thing, if you are like me and have been known to eat a stranger's spilt cheetos off the sidewalk
it is mental, more than anything
and while i'm on the subject of mental detox
i am realizing that
i kinda have low self-esteem : /
it is crazy what i tell myself, or what i let myself believe, deep down
my resolution is to develop more kindness for myself
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