( 11:03 AM ) shut up christine
oh lord
lately makoto keeps talking about babies
about a year and a half ago, i felt the sweet pangs of motherhood calling out to me...
don't know what happened since then, but that feeling has passed.
i barely have enough energy for myself right now. sometimes i just sit and cry because i'm so dang tired
the other night i got a good 8 hours of sleep but in the middle of the day i had to lie down for a 2 hour nap. annoyed at myself and my stupid body
i don't feel physically capable of carrying a child
maybe i can't, we don't know
he tells me if we have a baby, he'll take complete care of it
i can sleep and he will do everything. feeding, bathing, changing
everything
he would be an amazing dad
as i'm typing this i'm bawling my eyes out.
this post is to remember our struggles
that is all
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