meditated twice 

i even went out & got sage to smudge myself

i think i'm a fairly nice person

i try very hard to be nice, actually

i will hold in my emotions and let them manifest as rashes on my right arm

for a whole shift i censored my interactions with this one patient

but on day 2 i went off on him

he asked me "why are the doctors such bitches?" and i said "why are some patients such bitches?"

and then i proceeded to tell him what a bitch he's been

it's been 2 days since my last shift 

breathe in

breathe out