( 12:25 AM ) shut up christine
so i have this male coworker, very sweet guy
he's always flirting with the female nurses
i can hear him in the background hi sweetie how are you i should take you to [insert name of restaurant/place] sometime
por ejemplo
X says "it's cold in here"
and he offers to go downstairs & get his jacket in his car for her
the most curious thing is
i'll be sitting next to him and i'm invisible
no acknowledgement
unless i ask him a patient-related question
i was laughing to myself as i watched him sweet talk the ladies
and then that gnawing question popped back into my head
the question i have asked myself my whole life
if i was prettier, would this person treat me differently?
(have you ever asked yourself this question?)
but here i am
invisible fat butch girl
no jackets for us. ugly people must shiver in the cold hah
i'm not saying i want this guy's attention
it's important for me to write it out and observe my thought patterns
i was laughing at the beginning of this entry
right now i'm wiping little drops off my cheek
go ahead and cry
this, this is why you shaved your head
to question that question
to break your attachment to beauty
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