1. i've been getting all my IV starts, and with 20g needles

i have a feeling i'm gonna get pretty good at this 

this is a big deal for me. i can't even explain the enormity of it, like i'm totally crying right now.

it's like i am actively witnessing the fear fall away little by little, i can literally feel the change in my hands and in myself

2. there's a doctor in our department who is always yelling, rolling her eyes, throwing insults
if she sees a weakness, she jumps on it. i think she gets off on making people feel stupid. 

she went off on me once because her cell phone rang during a procedure and she yelled for someone to answer it, which i did, but she actually meant she wanted me to come over and hold the phone up to her face

anywho the other day we're starting a procedure and i'm doing the time out, i'm calling out the patient's labs and she interrupts me and says too much info i don't need to know that. and then she cocks her head and says to me "so tell me, what medications is this patient taking?" 

(fyi that is a random question at time out, and also not even 3 seconds earlier i had tried to give her the pertinent labs for the procedure we were about to do and she didn't want to hear).

without skipping a beat i run down the whole list of this patient's 17 home medications, which i knew because i wrote them down ahead of time next to my list of all the labs

i think she was trying to trip me up, but i'm ready for you sis

come at me :)